I have recently found myself in a bit of a pickle with blogging. I have problems, you see. Problems with motivation. Problems with following through. Problems with procrastination. I thought that once school was out I could get into my routine at work (you know, the old M-F, 40 hours a week thing), and from there blogging would be the “additional” in my life.
Keeping my “problems” in mind, we can all safely agree that I have added little to my additional. Finals ended three weeks ago, I’m settled into work, and I still find myself without that motivation. I needed something to, shall we say, get my groove back.
I was searching for motivation to get back into blogging regularly when I found Freya at Brit Chick Runs. I’d been on her blog a few times before, but it had been awhile. She was on Day 16 writing about mainstream music, and I thought hey, why not? I could write about stuff for 30 days. And June lasts for 30 days.
I can do this.
I will do this.
I’m going for it.
Day 01 – Your current relationship. If single, discuss how single life is.
For shock value only, I will admit to you all here and now that this lady is single.
Yes, I’m as shocked as you are. But not actually. This is a life choice, folks. Let’s roll.
I was the girl growing up who just needed to fall in love and have that perfect boyfriend (you know, age twelve hero and stuff). I had three boyfriends during the 5th and 6th grade. I don’t remember how long they lasted. I don’t really remember much at all about dating them. It was childhood whatevers in my mind. A big deal then, but not so much now.
Ever since I left elementary and entered middle school, I still wanted that “perfect” boyfriend. This carried on into high school. When those four years passed, I finally realized that I was chasing after an idea simply because it was a good idea. I didn’t even want it, though, not really. I accepted that being single was fine, and that I was actually quite happy when just having to focus on myself. I have friends and family, of course, but I didn’t need that extra person. It just took me a long time to realize it.
The point I’m getting at here is that “single life” is normal life for me. It’s not really a phase or something that comes and goes. It’s a part of me. I’m not looking to be this way for the rest of my life, but it works for now. To be honest, I just want to focus on finishing school and moving on to the next step that is to be my future.
More about my future in question two, coming tomorrow.
What’s your relationship status? How do you feel about it?